A true asshole can not stop...

I have been called an asshole many times, but not concurrently. I have made people cry. People of course, I don't much care for. I have never, however, been an asshole to someone that was able to prove greater than myself. I have never been an asshole out of jealousy.

So what do I mean and where am I going with this. Well there are many people who we must look at and wonder what the hell happened to you. These are the people I often refer to as drama queens (for the sake of cleaner words), or absolute stupid cunts. I am not sexist because I also will be an asshole to guys that wear abercrombie cologne or guys who dangle their thinking head between their legs. OK, so I hate people, regardless their sex, who feel money is more important than, well, anything.

These people will take on the shape of a perfectly shaped 18 year old woman in a short skirt willing to fuck your brains out. My point is they seem great...at first. This same person gets a little money, and with it, a shit ton of greed. Then they become the behemoth fire breathing dragon they really are. This person may be referred to or compared to any "great" leader. The problem is they get comfortable with what it really takes to be "on top". I mean of course forgetting what got you there in the first place.

Very few greatly successful people got where they are from good intentions and goal reaching. Maybe they reached their goal but in return they were forced to give up goals like "Helping the needy", "trying to help...blah blah blah any businesses mission statement". THEY FORGOT!

Well here's the deal. I am a successful business owner being sued by my ex employer. My ex employer started his company of website development as a trained electric engineer. Alright so with the obvious, huh?, aside, he hired people to do the work. He figured as an engineer he was so damn smart he could run a business he knew nothing about by hiring people who knew what the hell they were doing. All he had to do was sell a product he was uneducated about and beg his real developers to come up with a way. I mean I understand a used car salesman going out on a limb and blatantly lieing to the buyer but an engineer??? A well respected small town business man?

Well as I saw this happening naturally I felt sorry for this man. I thought he pays me, not good, but he pays me so I should try to help. Not only was this engineer so damn business savvy that he went from 8 employees to 1 in the matter of a year, he was smarter than the developers he hired! He met my educated ideas with his uneducated greed. Naturally I was not down to take this.

So what did I do? I was an asshole to this man. I am smarter, I am right, and I am no engineer. I can see why he's upset, right? I was fired by him just after a year of employment for not fulfilling a required attendance of hours to be worked in a week. I was a salaried employee as was all of us to the best of my knowledge. I was forced to work using pirated software which constantly did not work correctly. I was forced to build things for the web that could not be done in the ten minutes this engineer quoted them. I was yelled at for this, yet he was the intelligent one.

This same man who is suing me said this to a client who asked him what version of photoshop he was using, "Photoshop 7",which was pirated, "I do not believe in being on the cutting edge of technology". This is a web development company and being an educated employee of this firm I was embarrassed to hear the owner say this. Needless to say we did not get that project.

So why was I an asshole to this man. Well for the same reason I stated earlier I have never been an asshole to anyone that was able to prove greater than myself. This lawsuit was brought on by the same principles that has been the demise of his company in the first place. The principles of GREED. He is an angry man and he should be I am helping in his demise. I mean he should be mad on the surface, but if he actually decided to use the ideas an engineer is taught he would be able to systematically realize he was indeed the reason he failed. He was the asshole before I was forced to be one. He constantly shit on his talent in order to keep chewing his pride rather than swallowing it.

I will win this lawsuit and that I am sure of. I will, however, be completely unable to help this pitiful man.

Hook Up

Fuck me like I have no soul
Fuck me like I have no heart

Fuck you
Fuck you

Melt away my identity
For no longer must you suffer
I have gone straight towards the puffer
I am a man with a child's face

Fuck me in my eyes
Let out my soul

To let me lie down
To accept what I have caused
Punish me in an abusive way
Beneath where anyone can see

Fuck that little girls annoying voice
Head spinning swinging a death mace

Stop speaking so loud
It's not like I have all day
To sit and listen to you say
When in Rome

Your a stupid fucking cunt
To address me without reason
Choke you out to stop your speaking
Now you will not fucking talk

HA HA must I cheer myself up at your expense
Unfortunately you are without enough cash
To continue an intellectual conversation

My prices are fair
Fuck me, NO, Fuck you

You undeserving fake tool
Market yourself that whore
Will accept all currencies
Slut, Spit met your face
It cleaned that dirty little face
Only for a moment

At this point you take that spit
Reuse it later on an articulately shaped client

Listen to that dog bark
The monotony drives me wild
He's calling your name whore
He has paid with spirits
Please show them to their room

Cattle Herding Goat Raper

Don't run away
I'm not the boogy man
You are the water to my oil
Leave it to stars to tell

I will not
Can not
Face you
Not after all of this

You fucking raped me

Lured me in
Comforted my slumped mind
Pushed aside my problems
Told me I'd be fine

When push came to shove
You refused to recognize me
Tore apart my attire
Spoon fed me lies

You lazy cocksucker
Your a short fat mother fucker
Yellow stains residing in no hide out at all
Stupid god damned 3 questioned troll

You snorted like a pig
Must have been why you grew hoofs
Smelt the ass of your mother
To be sure you passed through

Disowned by your income
You lazy fucking troll
Made my ears bleed
Made me want to make myself bleed

Glad I was a disappointment
Glad you packed my bags
Saw me off to the path
Taught me everything I must do different

You cattle herding goat raper
Money adoring hobo
Don't roll in the mud,TROLL
It does not care for your stink

Becoming Vastly Understood

Life at first is disappear
Randomly discovered
Watered, nurtured, and delivered
Becoming vastly understood

Life is measured far to narrow
Talk about the first life
Jingle me how many has there been
How many deaths did it take
To discover how the first life
Has happened over and over

earth the control
Life the variable
However earth is shaped
But remnants remain

If live sees this connection
Gain prediction
Continue though, Mortality

Ask about when
about how
about where
What time

Gain answers by passing along
One super parallel Universe
Different rows
In an unlimited database

Chest cave in
Convex shaped
Collect water
Create corrosion

In the end you disappear
Randomly taken
Loved, Rugged, intelligent
Becoming vastly understood

You don't need a mind

I have come to the simple conclusion that the mind is looked past. It seems the heart is all that is looked at.

If I was a woman with a great ass and huge tits I would appeal to many. If I had along with that a great face I would appeal to all.

You can lock up an intelligent minded person for making a wrong mistake, but never will they lock up a person who lacks mind.

A person can commit a murder and act like they were troubled and get off. Some murders however I will say are justified. Men can not treat women like it is the 50's. A penis does not give me the right to "uphold the law".

Murders over drugs however I ask my government to step up. Not to step up the brutality of the DEA, but instead the way they handle the economy. Why should a person who could not make money other than to turn to drugs be sentenced to 30 years. Their only crime was obviously no guidance. What does a paid vacation behind bars prove?

A mentally ill person will be treated like they are a god sent. Special classes and special attention. Is that where we derive the word "special". I don't need a mind at all to make this life I only need a beating heart.

In school the people who cried out for attention where given "guidance". A person like me who struggled a bit because I though 40 of the same math problems was busy work is given no extra attention but rather said to be an under achiever. I can get and A+ on a test proving I know the material but get a C+ in that class because I chose against doing my homework. Is this fair?

A person with no mind but a beating heart will have there homework "grandfathered" in. Their tests drawn up with big lettered text and answered with big diameter pencils. Graded by a teacher who now has compassion.

I am not a bitter person who claims grade school was a waste of time but I ask you, is this the fair approach?

I was told that by not doing my busy work homework that I was a failure by many teachers, but the ones who needed a piece of Velcro to hold their writing utensil where an art work of god.

I completed college and successfully ran my own business. I have no trouble with number or my grammar and indeed correct people in their incorrect use, but I was a failure in school.

God if you are there

If there is a god then explain yourself
Sometimes I wonder are you the devil's friend
Create, destroy the lives of the great
Give disease to the ones that have yet to sin

Maybe you are a non conformist yourself GOD
Maybe you hate the ones that I refuse to be like
The ones that follow the rules in order to win your approval
Cocksucker, you unfair bastard

I must admit, however, I am indeed proud
If it is the case I have fought hard
To hate the ones that claim are loved by you
You are a conniving, backstabbing loser
Well that's what they would claim
I myself would credit you

They who follow the masses deserve to die in masses
Is this why I feel indestructible

Losing loved ones
you hear the phrase
"I never thought it could happen to me"
GOD you crazy crazy dude your serious

Let them lose the ones they thought did no wrong
Our parents never sinned that's why we grew up perfect
They have the right to anger because their perfection
Has been failed by their offspring's will

I refuse the comment of who lives and who dies GOD
But I bet you have a few words great buddy
You give cancer to pleasure your senses
Aids to the scum that deserve
Wrong hole fagot

Heart stops in the chest of the believers
Non believers have no one to blame
Why bother them they are to themselves

Break my face I am an asshole
Break my spirit and claim that I don't mean it
Probably going to be wrong
I might burn the flag of your believer

I will beleive and keep my ways the same
As long as they are never copied
And as soon as they are I will move on
I'm no conformist

Fuck you, Fuck me, try to get away
You and I both drive a trendy SUV
HA your exactly what they thought you up to be
GOD

GOD is good
God is great
God is damned and forever fake

Seriously

9 months a controlled growth
Mothering an immature soul
Must it need mind to grow
Walk is taught but not by us
Talk it copied and perfected

To communicate in this primitive shell
Until our calling is presented
Mind vast in order to develop methods of longing
An experimental latter to occupy our minds
Retarded ones are kept alive because emotions says to hold on

Each different race a variation
One though must be the control
Higher rulers must feel they are
The conformist path followers are controlled
By the yuppie bitch ministers of society

Not my remote driven control
Instead a simple numbing mind
They have the reason to run
Given a real mind motivation to act
Are you serious? Is this the book you want me to read

Seriously, you listen to the "law"
Made up by the power mutants
To control the monkeys that make him wealthy
Without a gun I would die with honor
With a gun I assume a fair chance, blown away, incorrect assumption

Others look to you in order to find a hero
Follow my foot steps, the mass will
Appreciate how I was able to follow written guidelines
End up dead, have tears shed, be remembered forever

Seriously, you forgot?
I was buried with a flag
21 shots of the same death fired
My body imbulmed in order to last and be paid tribute
As anyway it still rots and with it my existence in your mind

Seriously? We are but an experiment
Jesus died for me how do you explain that
Believe it because it is written
Fuck seeing it with your own two eyes
Believing them then whats the point of having senses

My superior human leader speaks for me
Take away my mouth
My media tells me what to think
Take away my mind
My pastor feels for me
Take away my touch
My teachers tell me how it is, its not theory, ITS FACT
Destroy curiosity

Follow you I would rather
live in a barn stall face down in shit
To rebel against you
Watch me sway side to side with a gleeful smile
To fuck up your "justice" I am content

Destroy me, Put me behind bars, Re remind me how I'm supposed to act
If I lie in the mix, I will stir up something evil
STOP ME
FUCK YOU

SERIOUSLY, I am your people...